Maps

It’s now the 9th. It’s been such a depressing breakdown since Halloween. 

I finally was able to cry this morning. I was so overwhelmed that the tears just wouldn’t come. It wasn’t until he really started to fuck with my head and show me how much he doesn’t respect me that I just really lost it. Maps by the Yeah, Yeah Yeahs came on and I finally hit my wall. The tears started coming and just wouldn’t stop. It was never like that. 

I’m so mad. He spent all of yesterday sending me cute shit. Making me think he missed me. Sending me screenshots of him listening to our song. Then played off listening to the whole album. 

I got pissed off because of the mixed signals and got short with him. I told him he was giving me mixed signals, and he said he doesn’t want to get back together  but asked me to wait for him… rotfl nah bro, I’m good. 

You can miss me while I’m choking down bigger, better, realer cock. 🤷‍♀️ Fuck him for pulling that shit with me. I would have waited before, but if you’re fucking with my feelings and not taking it seriously, why would I respect you enough to wait? You don’t respect my feelings and never did. I have no good reason to see this through. 

So we will just text barely enough until we meet other people and ghost one another I suppose.

All I know is I truly hate him for doing this to me. There is no second chance. He chose her over me and fucked his own future. It’s not my problem, not anymore.