recently, i meet a very beatiful girl, kind, interesting and with the most charming amber eyes i've ever seen. She has brown skin, shouder-length wavy hair, red and extremely short bangs. She bleached her eyebrows, people thinks that's weird, but i think she has a unique charm. She and i are neurodivergent, and last time, we spent the entire break talking about our hyperfocuses. During the dance performance of the other classes, we held hands. i had to hold myself back from running away screaming "I'M HOLDING HER HAND!!!!!!!!!". 
I never felt a healthy reciprocal love, or i went through emotional dependencies, or i just deluded myself with people who didn't give a shit about me. it's scary. i'm afraid of losing her. i'm afraid of involving her in my family problems, what if she doesn't want a boy who has to pretend he's not a boy? i feel too fragile to her. she is taller than me, is this humiliation in the female world? i've heard a lot of girls saying that they would never be with short guy. 
but... she's so beautiful. at her performance, i couldn't take my eyes off her. She talks about me to her friends, says i'm pretty... does she have bad taste or is she just blind? damn, i've actually never felt SO insecure!!!

to my so perfect girl, i'm really in love with you. i'm am zombie in love with a little witch, it's cute, right?