11/6/24

i'm just yapping my ass off here about venty sap horseshit since I have no where else to put my thoughts in a more productive manner but holy fuck everything has just gone to shit honestly. first of all the bullshit with America which is a whole other thing since i'm queer Hispanic and shit but its just been like this since ~July anyways

I "came out" to my parents which ended horridly because honestly what the fuck did I expect from them. 

its fucking November now am I still allowed to be pissy about this?? they've all forgotten about it but i'm still seething with rage In the middle of the night because of how I was barely allowed to "defend" myself over something I shouldn't even HAVE to????

humanity as a whole has neglected the notion of staying the fuck out of people's business and letting them do whatever lest it hurt another in a way that isn't "my kids going against my very personal beliefs in a way where he is not OBLIGSTINF us to confirm to him :("

big fucking problem when everything else is crumbling.

I can't pretend to be all happy cheery when all I wanna do is hold a fucking cigarette in my underutilized mouth and tell everyone that what they tell me is in fact affecting me and I fuckign hate them all, and every feeble attempt of consoling me feels so fucking superficial I wonder if anyone genuinely likes me because honest to God I will fess up, I am a fucking piece of shit.

i've been stuck as an academically and socially inept baboon in clothes for years and maybe i'm just done rn.

I fucking hate having undiagnosed shit when no one takes seriously and I fucking hate not being insane enough to warrant anyone taking me seriously.

I don't want to mask my honest thoughts anymore because honestly some people fucking deserve to get told they're scummy horseshit, and that I do not want to stay aorund them, especially because that means living my life as an unhappy chick. I mean being miserable and a man is still awful, but at least i'm a fucking man. its the fucking principle of being stupid and trans.

so yeah, laugh at me or something I really have no idea how normal people react to seeing people's shit on their feeds

I can't really care what happens from here on out I'm just some freak.

LOL bye