Shut out

Seeing other teens live their lives, go out and hang out with friends everyday always makes me think am I doing something wrong?

But in the end i put this all to myself, I hate going outside, I refuse to socialize when I don't feel like it, I never put effort in planning things out, I always turn down any hangouts and even school everts and most of all I live in a family where they don't care about having friends or having a social life. I'm not complaining I love my room I love the time I spend with myself in fact I love it more than anything, not being disturbed by the world just in my own little world.

Its not like I hate everyone I just think its too much of a hassle to deal with and I hate the responsibility it comes with.

So is what I'm doing wrong? Most teens my age don't seem to be like this. Is it bad to like the time I spend alone more than with anyone ever? does this make me selfish? self absorbed? egoistic?

Everyday I get reminded of this and it makes me feel less and less human the more I think about it.