Feel thrown away :(

Hello. It’s rant time. 

So about a week ago my boyfriend’s friend told me that my man was planning on breaking up with me soon, but was worried that it was going to hurt me. I told the friend I’d let my bf break it off because all of his exes cheated on him then left him, meaning he’d never broken up with someone. I thought he would need the confidence for his next relationship, so I told his friend that it was ok and he should go ahead and break up with me, I would be fine. Idk what happened with that like if he told him about it, but it doesn’t matter because the next day my bf gets suspended for being high in school. He doesn’t respond to any texts because he was grounded, but I didn’t know where he was because no one told me. When I found out it was 5 days later when he got back. I was so stressed and anxious during that time for obvious reasons. When I would see him in the halls he would avoid eye contact and walk away and that made me hella pissed. Like what the fuck?!? I didn’t do anything to deserve that crap!! I didn’t see him until the next day when school ended and I saw him walking out the doors. I caught up to him and the first thing he says is “What do you want.” Like huh???? I’m breaking up with you I say, and he responds with: “I know, I never had feelings for you in the first place.” This was the guy that fucking asked me out in the first place. Idk how to feel anymore. He was leading me on the whole time then just fucking ghosted me when he got bored. I feel like a faded and unliked doll, rotting away in the back of peoples minds. I hate life.