first day of school? HELL. (vent post)

Upset because i didn't realise i was getting bullied during my maths class.

Basically, let's call this boy Jason, and the other girl Leah. Jason and Leah were laughing for no reason, my seatmate, Bethany, wrote down in her notes to me 'what's going on?' i just shrugged back at her.

But, i swear i heard Jason say my name but i probably misheard. Well? turns out im fcking right, it was about me. My seatmate explained how Jason threw something at me (idk what) and laughed about my hair because it was 'stick-up' from the back, luckily i had a huge clawclip on me so i put it in a bun.

Did it end there? No. The whole class was laughing now and most of the girls surrounded by me had their coat hoods on. After class, my seatmate explained everything to me.

Jason threw a rubber, or something at me? i didn't even notice and my seatmate dodged it, she turned back around and jason was trying to point, indicating me. Everyone was laughing now, btw i i sit infront of these 2 girls. Let's call them, Stacy and Kacy. Kacy, is a new girl but i didn't expect her to be mean. Stacy said that i've got nits, spreading it like a rumour.

After my seatmate told me that, i burst into tears in the school yard. I HATED being vulnerable or comforted at school because this rarely happens. I couldn' hold back in my feelings anymore. Mind you, Stacy's friendgroup was outside too but i dont think they saw me but i remeber seeing her with a twisted smile earlier. I stopped crying and calmed down, me and my seatmate went somewhere else and i just vented to her about people (i hate oversharing sm omg)

Last period was history, i broke down in class at the start and my teacher comforted me outside. i told her what happened she question who, but i pretended i didn't know. (i don't want involvement) I regret crying to my teacher so much because this is the first-time.

Anyways, i have maths again tomorrow and i'm scared. I agreed with my seatmate that we could try ask my teacher, but what will i do if he won't let me switch seats? i have to force myself to go to school tomorrow anyways because i'm stronger than that. I have maths and another class with Stacy tomorrow, and i don't have actual friends there.

I might judt wear a hoodie or sum shi to hide my hair, im scared if i acc got nits or smth but :/

(p.s Stacy has been staring at me alot and shi like that, i see her reposts and she thinks IM the one staring at her but its litch been a week and she wont stop the tension).