THIS IS MY FIRST POST + A VENT :3

This is the only social I have where no irls follow me :(

So vent 

Basically I just hate Christmas time. Mostly cause I always get gifts for loads of ppl and I'm literally spending over 200 just on my friends or people I'm close to and I feel like a dick but I feel like I never get that same effort back. I don't want expensive shit I just want something I'll like. And no-one puts effort into the shit they buy me too, I never wanna seem ungrateful but one year one of my friends bought me a fucking coaster. And then they bought someone else a fucking makeup pallet when I had spent all year with them and it just felt unfair. 'I couldn't think of anything else' they say as if I don't collect shit??????? Get me a comic or somet idfk. And I remember they left the price on it and they didn't even bother to wrap it and at that point I'd prefer nothing. I spent like an hour wrapping all the gifts I'd gotten for ppl and everything. I don't think they're even getting me anything this year even tho I'm getting them a figure. Plus they barely fucking like me anyway. We're only friends cause she's not friends with her old bestie she got the makeup palette for. She always complains that I'm a dick but she does the same stuff like what???? I cannot be assed with anyone this year I always feel like I'm battling to get her attention n stuff, we're meant to be best friends. And yet she can't stand me. I struggle to keep friends and I'm realizing its cause I never feel safe enough to say shit like this without them getting all pissy with me. I can't do this anymore istg who irl actually likes me????????????

-Eddie ^^ <3

P.S I wish I could use my old preferred name cause it was so fucking cool but that friend basically fucking bullied me out of using it and then gets mad when i lightly poke fun at the stage name she wants. sorry make it make fucking sense. At least I didn't hang up on you when you were coming out as trans and chose the name Dionysus because you felt drawn to his free spirit then bully you into changing it to dion or dionz.