SEXUALITY CRISIS T_T

Haha, I feel like I'm dying lol

I have a girlfriend, and I like, feel like ai like her. But, not in that way. But I want romantic relationships. That also happend to me with my first 'crush'.

I was little, like, very little, a baby, a 6 years old baby. And it was this súper cool, he played the drum, and he was good in football. And, in the movies they always told that the protagonist falls in love with the popular guy. So I had to be in love to! ... right? 

I started to say I liked him, but I never really never... feel it... 

Now I'm 13, and I have this girl that I'm in a relationship with. She says she liked me in the first time, she always did jokes about us togueter and that things, and I also did that jokes! But, ow... cara mía... I don't know if I feel it...

I want relationships... I love the idea of a romance... but, I don't feel it... should I wait? I' part of the aro spectrum? I'm just overdramatic...

And... I found out this sexuality, called "cupioromantic". And, I think I'm that... but I don't wanna jump into conclusions. This is too complicated, I prefer to let it rest for now... but I can't let it rest forever...