making friends (vent/rant???)

im upset whenever I make a new online/irl friends, I always never get along. most of the time they stop talking or even lose interest in me, am I that boring? this feels like a quiz test to me, it’s like ooo let’s see if I’m approachable or not. I’m scared to even be myself sometimes even when I try to it becomes awkward. now, talking/interacting online is scary for me ITS INSANE😭 I just wish I have at least one buddy to get along most without others losing interest.