survived an attempt

tw attemped suicide as the title already states

so like a few days ago i completely lost it and i tried to hang myself with a belt that those bathrobes have on my lamp. it's one that doesn't hang down and is made of metal so i thought it would hold me. i was kind of scared, but once i did it, it felt peaceful, it didn't hurt. after a few seconds or so, the lamp broke off, making me fall w the lamp just landing onto my head. idk how long i was lying there but eventually my mom came back home from work. idk what happened after but i woke up in the hospital. my mom was there, she still looked shocked from what had happened, i think she was angry at me but also glad i was still alive. somehow the lamp didn't do much damage to my head except for blunt force trauma, i was pretty lucky it didn't shatter onto it.

i'm going home tomorrow or so

if i seem kinda nonchalant about it, it's just a coping mechanism. also i don't wanna make it that big of a deal