Dad drinking and tws for drinking, sh thoughts, and unaliving thoughts

Dads drinking again and I feel like it's my fault I don't know what to do I feel like I don't belong I feel like I shouldn't even exist rn idk what to do I'm just so tired of living at this point I don't even think anyone would notice or care if I died or dissapeared I just feel like a background character no one noticed or cares about 

Sorry about the rant/vent I don't really have anyone rn