My Fiance and I Finished Watching The Good Place

...and fuck. 

He presses his head against my shoulder. I hold him as though he is cracked porcelain. We gaze at our reflections through the screen. Puffy eyed and frozen. A moment suspended in time. And for a while, the world seems like a different place. I don't think I will be able to stop thinking about it for a while. I want that day to be frozen in the Jearimy Bearimy. Leave it as it is Leave it bittersweet. The show means a lot to me, but I don't think it'll be a rewatch. Not for a while. It came to me, I'd like to think, at the right time. Last week, as my fiance and I were mindlessly thumbing through Netflix and I decided that we should watch it. I don't think I'd have never watched it any other way. I'd never heard too much about it, but I had been told by somebody at some point in time that I'd like it. I don't really want to give a summary of the show on here, but if you can bum someone's Netflix off of them for a few days, I'd highly encourage everyone to watch it. It introduces concepts of philosophy in a very palatable way and the humor is immaculate! The redeemability of humanity. The way friendship can transform you. The underlining good in humanity. The ways we love, we hurt. We grow and what makes us who we are. In the end, I don't think most people are bad. I think maybe, in another life, with the right people, we could all change. For the better. 

Anyways, I watched the last episode on the last day of October and in a way, that is fitting although it wasn't inherently spooky. It was like celebrating and honoring the death of spooky season. And I wouldn't say the show broke me so much as it came over me like a wave. 

I looked my fiance in their eyes and we just sat there. Speechless. The silence humming throughout my living room. And yeah...

I don't really know if there are enough words for these feelings, but they're so human.

Take it sleazy.

- Cas <3