Life

Wolf here . I'm scared of dying. I tell myself again and again that I'm immortal. I think about afterlives and my regrets all the time. I am terrified of growing up, I'm terrified of time passing. A wolf wouldn't fear like this- there are far more important things for them to worry about. I am so perfectly human it disgusts me- some days I want to tear open my flesh and see the beautiful animal beneath. I spent my childhood convincing myself I was special, listening to subliminals and saying prayers and spells and begging to become anything but human. I do not know what makes me this way- I don't even know if this is how others feel. I either feel full of emotions or none at all. I don't get jokes or sarcasm, and I fight back at every problem like a ravenous beast. I live in a world that was never designed for me, and every day it makes me feel worse.