Halloween entry (2)

So, it's October 31st, 2024. I've turned 16 and I've never had so much love in my heart.
My friends are some of the best people I've ever met, I'm the least stressed I've ever been.
I'm so so happy. 

I spent Halloween with a good friend on mine, we really only started talking around two months ago, but they're really fun to be around. She's funny, maybe a bit slow, but aren't we all? :3 She's nice and I always have fun when I'm with them. My mom tried to guilt me into being with everyone else at home and spend my Halloween with them, like I always do... 

I'm 16 now, I'll only be like this once. I'll only be young once, it's really sad, actually.

I'm 16, it's November first, midnight. I'm supposed to be asleep. 
I don't want to be this age, it's not old, I just feel like it's all slipping away so fast. In two years, I'll be working, and that's so scary. Taxes, food, job, car, insurance. It's terrifying!

On the bright side, I'm getting better at math. Last year, I got a 2/42.. but, I'm getting 21/24's and 4/8's. that's like, almost passing..

I also started gauging my ears a day after my birthday, I'm still on 14g of course, but I'm excited. Life is changing so fast for me. 

I'm growing, I have friends, and I love them, so much. I love my boyfriend, and all my friends. 


I've also been watching House MD, and it's made me think a lot tbh. I miss the 2000's a lot, stuff I grew up with, but also how alone he must be. I'll bold spoilers. I'm on s7 so watch fer spoilers,

but, basically he's been in-love w the dean of med, Cuddy. She was with some PI House hired back in S3 or some shit and, she has a baby(adopted) well, they ended,,, house noticed, and she covered it up by saying He proposed. well when she's scolding house, she tells him she doesn't love him, she's moved on, Wilson's(House's bff/bf, who he had to be with after his ward trip, and whom kicked him out bc his ex wife wanted to fuck him over again) moved on/left him. He has nobody, nothing and no life to lead. All he has is puzzles, he doesn't even have his addiction anymore.

anyway, It just makes you think, how does he NOT kill himself after that? I would,, to be honest. 

I wanted to talk about my experiences with mental illness, but I also wanted to update, even if nobody reads this, I like to have an outlet of some sort.


Signing off,
Miles. <3