My Struggles

Topic 1:Struggles

Dealing with Depression:I always had problems coping with my depression and anxiety even when I lost a loved one even though I struggled with my depression and thought it got worse when I lost someone that really meant alot to me. I started thinking like how i was going to survive without her. I had a lot of flashbacks when she passed away and when i went to go view her body i cried i fell into a deep depression not wanting to be on earth anymore. But i also felt like i shouldn't give up so quickly or just X myself out when i know in the back of my head i am a strong person. It took me awhile to start wanting to turn my life around and wanting the depression to go away.one day i decided to start journaling at first i thought this writing stuff wouldn't help but as time fly’s and writing it helped me alot i also look at tiktok with other people that journal it made me feel like i accomplished something that can help me with my struggles.

During covid 19 i learned alot about my likes and dislikes what type of person i am it made me feel really good about that i know what type of person i am instead of depending on others to tell me about myself like negative people and positive people which it confused me i learned (its best to know yourself first then letting others tell you things that are not true about yourself)(i recommend a positive trusted person that dont judge you)

Anxiety:I always struggled with my anxiety like social anxiety and when it comes to heated moments like arguments or getting yelled at my anxiety is still a process i get anxiety from arguments, loud noises sometimes and i had a lot of anxiety in middle school because i used to get bullied just for being in special ed To Be Honest there is nothing wrong with being in a special education class in my opinion like my Environmental Science Teacher said “everyone learn different and to know your worth” W teacher in my opinion