Waves and pictures

Gender is hard for me to describe because it's ever changing like the ocean or sea. Waves crash over me and pictures form that describe my gender. I can be as feminine as a ballet performance or the sun. I can be as masculine as the mountains. Sometimes I feel like a void or a blank canvas. Other times I am the embodiment of femininity and masculinity. My dysphoria comes in waves as well either my chest is to big or small, I am to hairy or not enough. I will always look like a girl even when I'm not. Sometimes my insecurities come from my dysphoria and it's hard to separate the two. Sometimes the waves come rapidly and other times it's just still. It can be hard having a gender that changes as much as an sea but I love it nonetheless, because it is who I am.