Blogging into the void as usual (goodbye teen years + i hate being female)

I turn 20 next month. Lately I've been reminiscing and thinking about my teen years up to this very moment. Being a teenager actually fucking sucks and I'm so glad it's finally almost over for me. Of course high school was bad but only until my 4th and 5th years (I repeated my senior year :P ), cuz by then I was connecting with the teachers on a more mature and genuine level. Which I loved. They became friends. And I miss them all :( like a lot but I guess I can always visit them.

Tropes say teens get crushes on ppl, wellllllllll. not me. I'm #builtdifferent and the only real crush I had/have is/was on a teacher that's married with children so. Unobtainable as fuck and that's fine by me. I have almost no interest in pursuing a romantic relationship. I've never dated anybody and I'm the only person amongst my friends (ALL of them) who hasn't. I can't imagine putting someone through a relationship with me, oh that would suck for them. Luckily I have little to no skills when it comes to flirting. The only "flirty" interactions I've had were just men who clearly are much older than I am asking me "how old are you? you're NINETEEN?! what are you doing after the show" and similar bullshit. I hate being a woman. Like I can't dress nice without someone commenting on it. I've even been barked at by some guy in a car. Like if you really thought I was hot you'd get out of that stinky ass car and talk to me like a normal fucking person would. That's how I know they're doing nothing more than objectifying me. OK.............. HOW did I get into this topic. WHO even cares. Not me I like typing my stream of consciousness onto the internet.

Anyway. I am so done with being a teen. Growing old sounds much more fun. IF u actually read all that, u should let me know, it would be nice and inspire me to post more on this cool site. :) 

Bye 4 now.