huh..

I love people so much, That I do anything they say I always agree..

even though I treated them well.. Comforting them, being there, listening to them

they never treated me better, I mean.. they do comfort me but they don't even know

what they are saying to me or better off as, They don't mean what they are saying

if you really loved me then don't abandon me.. I've got left and forgotten for years

I don't like it anymore, I mean.. I got used to it but it makes my heart feel so painful

and my mind anxious. I never went to a panic attack but slowly everything is becoming

blurry and I feel dizzy that I feel like I'm about to pass out, But I don't care..

wait I do- I cannot end it all cause the people I loved would miss me, wait what?

what am I saying? they won't miss me they just beg me to stay so I can comfort them

and listen to them, They all notice me of they wanna vent or feel lonely.. Am I just

a back up friend and nothing else? It hurts.. I don't wanna tell them that I don't want

them to see me as negative and selfish! Maybe I was never valid.. I should never

talked about my emotions either too, I'm tired..