why r application essays hard???

started writing my college application essay to send out my app to schools w/ early admission and genuinely have never had this much trouble w/ writing an essay in my life before. im trying to get it done and send out the applications before november 2nd cus ome of the schools is accepting applications for FREEEEEEE!!!!! and realistically speaking im almost done w/ le essay. 

that being said... WHY AM I NOT SATUsfied WITH IT'!?!!!!!/'

def will try n finish it before the end of the day LOL