BEİNG A SENSİTİVE PERSON (my experience)

Okay, its like a little bit embarrassing for me. I don't know where should I start but I HATE BEİNG A SENSİTİVE PERSON. I AM SUFFERING. I AM LİTERALLY SUFFERİNG like physically!! I don't know if that's a psychological problem but it's one of the most terrible versions for torture yourself. It is normal to feel uncomfortable about something in daily life, then the disturbing thing disappears from your sight and you forget about it. Well, that's not work on me. People's filth ruins my day, I don't normally pay much attention to them but it's impossible to live in a social society and not be affected by people. Every time I see something I'm sensitive about I feel dirty and it happens so suddenly. I don't know when I'm going to be affected by something and my attacks come randomly, maybe I have another problem and these sensitivity attacks are just an excuse. I just can't let it go! It's eating and eating and eating and eating my brain. It's hard to explain this as much as it is to experience it, I mean how can I explain to people that I'm crying for a game's atmosphere? I can't help it, it bothers me so much and sticks to me until I finally have no strength left to think about it. I feel everything and everyone so deeply and I can't get used to this pain. Like the menstrual cramps that come every month. It makes me more emotional and more angry person in general. And what's even more embarrassing is that I'm no longer a little kid. Most people learn to control their emotions by the time they graduate from middle school. I may update this later. For now I just want to remind my future self how much I suffer from this problem.