liking boys in kind of a gay way

had this thought last night that like when i talk to lesbians, they understand my crushes on guys a lot better than straight girls! and like i know that the content straight girls post online is not the whole of all straight girls but like... idk i just dont relate to them!

i just want like... straight yaoi... which makes no fucking sense but its the only way i can describe the way that i feel lmaooo and like idk i identify as queer simply because it is the most nonlabel i can find so i think looping myself in with one group to try and find like other girls who like guys like me goes against what i want as a person

but yknow. if theres any other girls who feel like they like guys in kind of a gay way. ur my homies! my besties! my kindred spirits