10/29/24

Guys, I had just woken up it is about 5 AM I woke up earlier to get ready for school but I finished at 5.20.. I don't feel good enough to get ready and look pretty i have no time for that I have to find David's parents in less than a week I need to know what is going on since he had passed. I don't feel like myself and I'm just expecting the pain of being suicidal soon, its almost like a cycle I feel better and than I feel bad, I'm in too much pain to even reach to someone to at least say hey I think I want to "hurt myself." When I woke up my body hurt so bad not physical but mentally, I used to wish id be dead by now but now I think I deserve it...