js some basics abt me

Basics: I go by yukkichan but you can call me yukes, i'm 16, turning 17 pretty soon. i'm not really a shy person, i just never seem to know how to put my thoughts into words all that well, although i love to talk, i love to chatter my brains out about stuff that no one around me rlly cares about. i'm insecure n more likely paranoid about alot of things; what ppl think of me, how ppl see me, how i talk, how my body looks, how my face looks. it rlly seems like i've never had a good hair day, i just wanna be hairless, i hate when i get hot and sweat drips down from my hair, i hate hair. i rlly like all shades of pink especially pastel pink, in fact i love all pastel colors n shades. i hate dust, i hate peeling wallpaper, i hate rusting metal, i hate real money, i hate when people bring dirt from their shoes into my room. i love minimalism, but sometimes i like being a little cluttered. i love sweet things, i want to fill myself only with sweet things. i love a fruit scented perfume bottle that shaped like the fruit, i love small spaces i like having everything at arms length, i love walking, if i lived in a universe where time doesn't exist i would walk everywhere. i won't say that i'm lonely i can make friends pretty easily, sometimes that's my only reassurance that i'm not the worst human being on earth, i don't go out that often, i never rlly do. sometimes i feel guilty that im so contempt with my life, it's like someone telling me i should do more things, meet more ppl, do more fun stuff but idrk i sorta like keeping to a schedule, i like to plan everything lol.

Hobbies: I love reading, articles, novels, books abt political theory lol anything. i've been getting rlly into postwar japanese literature recently;mishima, dazai, enchi. i used to be so into history too, i think what rlly made me get into reading in the first place was history i used to loved reading abt past countries and civilizations, their cultures, how their governments work. i love listening to music, sometimes the only constant in my life is how much i listen to music, i don't really have a taste, i like all kinds of music. what im listening to atm: kero kero bonito, kyary pamyu pamyu, yeule, frost children, black dresses (nothing good ever lasts..) sweet trip, alice glass, feeble little horse, english teacher, spiritualized, underscores, jane remover, quinn, perfume genius, ryan ross, charli xcx, SOPHIE, 100 gecs, hannah diamond, danny sunshine, dorian electra, slayyyter, and waka flocka flame! >0< (i wish flockaveli 1.5 was on spotify)

Future plans: Feed the world, lol i wanna get into agribusiness when i grow up. i used to be so into botany. my dream was always owning, managing, and branching out my crop trading business..!