purposu

what is my purpose?

maybe this is a derealisation but i just feel like

i feel nothing?

im just a teen and rn im at my brothers apartment completely alone just me and his cat..im happy with my own company yk? like i, myself, am my best friend but it just feels like somethings missing. im trying to make music my company as i lay on the bed, look at the mirror and feel nothing but this thing deep inside my chest, i feel it when i look myself in the eyes, i know its not me, i dont feel whole, why am i here? i ask myself. i shouldn't be here i say but then i have no idea where i should be.

im supposed to be where i am rn, i know that. but these moments in life are just different yk?

i dont feel whole 

would someone want to exchange letters and just talk?