Life experience

For the last 3 years I always had someone special in my life. Didnt need to be a boyfriend just someone I talked for hours everyday and knew my every single private detail. And I completely changed myself for em and ofc they got advance on me mentally physically doesnt matter and when I talked abt it they always refused Even tho I changed for em they asked for more. I felt worthless. Now I dont have someone like that in my life and I feel so empty?.. Dunno like its in a relaxing way. I only felt pretty when that people told me that im pretty and felt like shi if they said the opposite. Now everytime (even in my worst apperance) I love the girl im seeing on the mirror. I dont need to worry to reply someone that not worries for me. I realized that I really had friends,I realized that Im living for myself.Life feels so peacefull even with the chaos inside cuz its my chaos ITS NOT THE CHAOS THEY CAUSED AND NOBODY WAITS ME TO SOLVE SOMETHING WHICH IS NOT MY BUSINESS!!! i am living for myself.My company is for me. I love this feeling... Feels so free.