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i remembered my old friend today, we were friends for two years or so, after that i got sick of her, she would always complain and her mom always found a way to let her stay at home (from school / in my country we have compulsory schooling or whatever its called.) without consequences so i never even got the chance to hangout with her after a while anyway ... 

 as i said , i remembered something she told me. When i was super proud of myself for having come up with a solution to something i barely remember, i had said (sarcastically) "Oh my god, i love myself so much". she kinda just stared at me and i asked her if i had done something wrong, she said shook her head as a simple "No, you didnt", 

after that she replied: "you just never say that you love yourself, you always say "god, i hate myself", it was just a bit shocking". a simple sentence from a person i now despise changed the way i viewed myself. i thought she was being sarcastic at first but she seemed as genuine as she could be. i never realized that i said it so much that it would shock my friends, although i know i was being sarcastic it kinda changed me.

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