I don't get it sometimes

Sometimes I feel like I try too much and give people or anyone in general lots of support or I do too much like get gifts, go to events, or help people too much and I feel like when I do that stuff too much people take advantage of it or don't care about it and then it's like I did nothing at all and what I did was not important at all and I feel like my life is where I always do things for people but I am never apart of anyone's life as much and it really hurts. I feel like me trying all the time isn't worth it and I feel like I keep depending or doing too much for people and I think now I'm getting tired and upset about it so now I feel like I wanna be more alone at times because of it all. All I ever feel like is an extra to peoples friend groups, life, and everything else. Yesterday someone said I was more of a nonchalant friend and they were talking bad about me and were like just kidding and stuff and I was just sitting there like ._. but really deep down I knew to myself that I was trying to make it look like I wasn't paying attention nor cared but really I felt so hurt. I feel like sometimes the only person that will ever get me or understand me is my future person hopefully. Because it seems to me everyone seems to either think of me as an extra friend they don't really care about or people don't like me and I feel like all of that is a sign possibly the person that does get me is my soulmate. But the thing about that is when will he get here? When will he save me from the hell I live through and the stupid stuff I have to suffer from. Whenever I meet him, It's worth the wait for sure I bet. I got lots left to live but still overall I just don't get it. Maybe that's why I always talk to myself at times. Other than that, I don't like the feeling of being an extra is all I'm gonna leave that off on.