small rant on gender identity(╯︵╰,)

this is stupid but like I NEED TO GET THIS THOUGHT OUUUUT!! sometimes I want to be a boy I wanna look like a boy make ppl see me as one but it feels like no one will ever see you as one plus IK its weird but like like literally guys only like me when I AM A GIRL when I present my self as a female and sometimes I don't want to be that way and I'm scared of losing that feeling of someone liking me but then it hurts me more because I can't be what I wanna be right right? IK I HAVE FEM PRNS ON MY PROFLE but idk if I want them to be that IM JUST SO CONFUSED and some ppl will say maybe ur genderfluid BUT I don't identify with that like honestly I just don't want to be a female ppl just like me as a female at some point I did use he/him and my friends never used it :( 

IM GOINNNG INSANE BRO( •́ω•̩̥̀ )