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I know I don’t fit stereotype of what a trans person is or what a trans person “should” look like but I am trans. Yes, I am cis passing in the sense of people reading me as a cis girl (bc I’m really feminine but in an alternative way) but I am not cis. I am trans.
Yes, I have little gender dysphoria and I don’t want top or bottom surgery, but I am not cis. I am trans. (Plus I do bind on days where I want a fatter looking chest so)
Yes, I use she/her pronouns and I love it when people use feminine terms for me, but I am not cis. I am trans.
What makes me trans is the fact that I don’t like being seen as a girl and the thought of me being a women makes me uncomfortable. Yes I love feminine terms but I don’t like it when people call me a girl. (But if it’s in this context where it’s not really in a gender way and more of a feminine way like this for example: “now girl…” or something like that then that is fine. I feel really anxious about my chest if it isn’t flat sometimes so I bind. I fantasize about me wearing boxers (this isn’t always a trans thing but for me it is)
I just want to put this out there bc of so long I was scared to call myself a trans person openly because I thought I was hurting trans people by doing so since I don’t fit the stereotype. But as I’ve gotten a little older (and wiser lol) I realized that I wasn’t hurting the trans community just by existing and that I’m perfect just the way I am. Anyways, peace out!✌🏽
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「 Bea๑ 」
i sincerely hope people respect that!! especially people within the community. some people are stuck in thinking there are specific things required to be trans which... sucks and actually harms trans people! you're not hurting anyone in being yourself and are valid for everything!
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TYSON
can i ask how you came to the conclusion youre trans then, with little dysphoria? and why youd still use female pronouns? im not being rude just askin
I’m glad u ask! At the age of 13 I started questioning my gender because at the time I thought I was like 50% girl and 50% agender (or what I like to call 50% of nothing lol). I was very confused and was hesitant to call myself trans bc again I didn’t and still don’t experience traness the way it’s stereotypically shown. Then I found the term “Demi-girl” which literally mean half girl lol. So for like a year I used that term. I felt uncomfortable calling myself non-binary because I thought I felt like I would be causing harm to non-binary people (which mainly stems from the fact that most of the non-binary people I saw were androgynous and white and I am neither of those things therefore I thought couldn’t be non-binary) I still felt uncomfortable with people calling me a girl and I thought it was because people only saw me as a cis girl and not as a non-binary one. And then it finally hit me at 14 when I was realized I actually wasn’t a girl and that I was just nothing. :D (agender) I started to realize that I mistaked my femininity as me wanting to be a girl and that even if I was a Demi girl, I still would be non-binary. And as for the pronoun stuff I just love it when people use she/her pronouns for me since it makes me feel feminine and stuff. I also use they/them pronouns to represent the gender neutral/nothing side of me. Hopefully I made some since in this answer and if u have anymore questions I’ll be happy to answer them! Also sorry it’s really long I had a lot to say lol.
by Knives; ; Report
I didn’t explain the dysphoria part… when I mean I have little dysphoria I mean it doesn’t bother me 24/7. I have some chest dysphoria but it goes back and forth and half the time I don’t feel dysphoric in my chest and sometimes I do. I feel the most dysphoria when people call me a girl which is understandable since not a lot of people know I’m non-binary but it still hurts. When writing this I was thinking about my physical dysphoria (it was like really late at night when I wrote this and if I wrote this during the day instead I would’ve been more specific when it comes to the dysphoria part.
by Knives; ; Report
interesting, thank you for explaining!
by TYSON; ; Report
No problem!
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