Me and Deism

I born Muslim and my family was not religious. They told me the best part of the religion and that was all. I was a sunni then i started to check Alevism cuz my dad was one. It seemed so off.Then I decided to learn it about myself. And I realized that I cant find peace in  my own religion. Then I started searching about Christianity. I know from the christians islam and christianity looks so different but we believe Islam is continuation of the Christianity and when i read The Holy Bible it felt so similar with Quran. Then i checked Shamanism/Tengrism. I am a Turk after all. But somethings seemed so off with it. I didnt had a lot of info and the ones I had was not enough me to believe. Then I checked Budism,Hindusm, Sikhism but nope all seemed so off and tbh Sikhsm felt like Abrahimic religions a lot they were all not a fit for me. I also checked Greek gods but I only kept seeing it as a Greek myth. Then I sat and thought of everything. All the religions had a bad side for me I knew there was a god but religions it felt like unnecessary polarization. Now I don't believe any religions knowing none of em fits me and I know how to filter wrong and right thoughts so believing to a religion felt so off. 

I mean no disrespect to any of the religions ,these are just my thoughts and my survey.

I wanna listen your thoughts.

Luv you all