FIRST VENT YAYAYYAYA

i HATE the smell of white wine, I've tasted wine before and it hasn't been too bad but the smell of white wine specifically reminds me of when my mom's drinking.  she comes into my room all wobbly and it smells so bad, its super uncomfortable, sometimes she stands in the door opening just swaying side to side, sometimes she sits on my bed talking about useless shit that i couldn't care less about at 12 am. besides, its probably things she'll regret telling me about later anyway

 when i cover my nose from the smell she starts commenting on it and then she starts yelling for no reason and calling me dramatic saying "it's not that bad!"

it's not like she's an alcoholic and it's not like i hate my mom but drunk people just make me uncomfortable and she's never gonna understand that.

i don't have a lock on my door and even if i could lock my door she would get mad at me if i really did.

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12:11 goodnight ♡ (I'm not going to sleep)