First job is going pretty well!!!....but the demons are in my head!

I started a new job literally a few days ago! It's going well, I'm getting the hang of things [as one does!] I genuinely thought that being in an environment where [REDACTED] wouldn't be would make me feel a lot better!!!....not really!

I have awake dreams [dreams where I'm fully conscious, but i can still experience what's going on in the dream? I dont know what they are ^^7] and i had one at work recently. I was suddenly filled with terror in its worst form. We moved to a new state to get a fresh start in all of our lives, whether we wanted to or not, but I feel like I havent gotten the chance to calm myself down. She's still out there, and while she doesnt know exactly where i am, she always finds a way back to me. I cant grapple why i still feel like this, but I do. And after it all, i must live through it. 

I just dont want this to make me feel terrible again, the kind of terrible where i can barely do anything ^^7