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Am I the only one who thinks that being an adult is better than being a teen in middle and high school?
Perhaps my views are a bit biased between all of the crazy things I've had to go through and have had time stolen from me as a result between the ages of 13 - 17 having to deal with things such as on and off depression, dealing with a helicopter grandmother who would always reprimand me and start arguments between me and the rest of my family whenever I wanted to gain the most basic of age appropriate freedoms (and trust me when I say that having to sneak out of your own home during the fucking DAYTIME just to go get some ice cream by walking down unsupervised to your local Baskin Robbins as a teenager is absolutely pathetic), and of course, the COVID-19 pandemic.
Even at the age of 17 when I finally became stable again and gained the freedom to walk the mile home from school on my own (though I still wasn't allowed to walk to school in the mornings for some reason and had to take the stupid school bus there instead), I still found my autonomy to be quite lacking. Of course, I felt freer than I had in previous years, though I still felt restrained and behind where I should've been in terms of what sorts of freedoms I was allowed to have during my senior year of high school and I still felt the need to keep some secrets about what I've been doing to my folks (such as walking to school on some mornings and even taking the city bus unsupervised a few stops down on my way home from school a few times during the 2023 - 2024 school year) until the week of my high school graduation. Truthfully, I'd say that my senior year of high school was my best and really only good year of high school for such reasons.
And now, here I am as an 18 year old college student. It's crazy to think about how much can change in just a matter of a few months, particularly upon the celebration of your 18th birthday. While it's true that I have more responsibilities now, at the same time, I also have more autonomy and control over my own life. Autonomy has pretty much always been an important issue for me (especially so when I was 16 and had finally snapped upon being made to feel so helpless and lacking in control over my own fucking mouth and what pieces of metal get shoved in there and some things in my life during an already vulnerable time in my life).
I have this newfound freedom of being able to travel wherever I want, whenever I want (as long as the buses are running while I'm out) without the fear of something like the cops being called on me simply for leaving the house and just knowing that my decisions and consequences are now directly a result of my own free will and not from a paranoid grandmother threatening (and likely even actually doing, knowing her) something stupid and having another person be involved in these parts of my life. Being an adult truly is liberating in a lot of ways, particularly if you're in a situation similar to mine where you were living with a controlling and manipulative helicopter relative around your adolescent years.
Autonomy is the thing I've been craving for so long and now that I have it in its fullest form, it feels almost like I'm getting high off of it. I have more of it now since August 3rd of this year than I did at any previous point in my life, and it feels amazing being able to finally catch up on what I've been missing out on in terms of independence and finally even having some chance of getting into a relationship with someone now that I'm of legal age (and I tend to find myself attracted to people who are older than I am, particularly so to those born prior to the turn of the millennium).
Anyone else here feel the same way, or is it just me?
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꩜ GRIFFIN ꩜
I definitely like it more for some things, but I also miss being in high school. I wish I could mix the two together lol
DonDoe404
The adult life can have its pros and cons
The freedom is great and college/university can feel different to high school
Just remember you have to rely more on yourself more push yourself to get things done