Anxiety, conquered (at least for today)

I have a pretty wicked panic disorder with agoraphobia, so being able to go on a walk around my town was a huge deal today. I was scared but I had comforting music (dark ambient is my little void blanket of comfort), and I took my cane with me to give me more support. I did have a fatigue episode and felt a little unwell, but I made it back home okay. This is an especially big accomplishment considering when I went out yesterday, two cars almost hit me while I was crossing the road two different times. One ran a red light and the other sped around a corner. Both times I swear my life flashed before my eyes. People are awful sometimes.

But I did the thing today. I didn't put pressure on myself to go vote today like I'd originally planned, I just let myself enjoy the moment without the pressure. I'll try again tomorrow to go vote, maybe I'll accomplish it then. I'm just so scared of voting in this area because the sheriff threatened all democrat voters by suggesting we should be put on a list to keep track of 😭 Just scared to walk into the voting location, but I have to. And I will. I absolutely will.