gang HAIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!1

hello fellow internet weirdos. 

its me again

though you mightve guessed ths by the fact youre reading *my* blogggg......., uH 

okokok anyways so lots going on in my life atm,. hard to explain  but let me try to explain anyways - i got into a weird thing with a friend where we decided becauz we were both super lonely wr'd do ykw what with each other - like yk, kissing, among other sthing......s 

so we did, we made plans to meet up a few times, and uh, like the pathetic loser i am, i caught feelings:((( and lucky duck me, he didnt have feelings lik i did... so then it was weird doing things together cuz id get all clingy and lovey and he wanted it to stay a casual thing. so bc he knew i wasnt gonns be as casual as he wanted it to be, he decided to be a nice guy (god hes so good to me aGHHHHHHHHHHHH), andd tell me we cant see eahc other (he said he didnt want to amplify my feelings and we should distance ourselves (which, fair.)) so we took a little break and then i kind of conivnced him to see me aagin and we did and it made my feelings 10x worse so i decided, ykw fuck it.....

and i sent him  a paragrapj, essentially saying 'goodbye for now', and then blocked him. so uh. now im trying my hardest to be so so so so so so soooooo very brave. :///// 

uhh i miss him so much its only been like a day or rather less than a day and uhhhhghh this is soso hard gang. TRYING TIO STAY PSOITIVE

but anyways gang. hope yall having a better day tha n i am. <3