i love tord from EddsWorld

why am i so freaken fixated on tord. tord this tord that. i cant stop thinking about him he just exists inside me now at this point. I even go back to his old accounts (irl tord) using the wayback machine i learned personal info on him and just tweak at the mere mention of view of him. i find it hard to function without this character, for a while iwas a bit depressed or wtv but then i discovered eddsworld and suddenly my life gets a whole lot better and before i knew it i purchased the Tord youtooz figure and i have 5.3k+ pins saved on pinterest and counting. is it unhealthy or love i dont even know at this point man. when i hear a song i think of him. i think of "he would lsiten to this" to "he would like this" or "this song is literally him" or "this reminds me of him" to even where i imagine animation memes with him. i literally hate @marzipanini on twitter and i just despise her so much to the point i just. UGH. i've broken things watching the end for the about 20th time and counting. i feel really bad too for hating this much sometimes because they dont even know i exist and here iam wishing they would explode or something. same goes for @sproutlynn on twitter as well. i dont know if anybody will ever see this. or even if marzipan or lynn will see this. i just really hate and it makes my blood boil when i see people commenting and drawing their self insert ship. im sorry but i question and scream and wonder have they ever cried at the mere glance of tord or even touch yourself to tord? i know these are like grown people and im just a fangirl but sometimes i just want to tear my skin off but these hyperfixation had been going on for a year and a half and now at this point i just cant help but lwyas brinig up tord an mention him and just... i feel like sometimes im just not heard and i even wonder. these selfships make me compaer myself to them and ask myself "ur cringe acting like this"and i know i am but i really do cry. i sob. i think about tord all the time. i puhs my body to exhaustion using tord as a goal in something such as running. i did 20 pushups when iw as supposed to do just 15 when my friend had said "do it if you love tord." im sorry if ive wasted anyones time from them reading this - this was a basically rant. i have to fight the urge to write ull on essays on purely tord based things. sure i have little side crushes here and there but nothing really compare to tord. i need to restrain from actually saying his full real name as mentioned previously i had learned private things from hi old accounts. i dont mean to sound like a creep i really dont but you gotta admit. the moment i get my hands on my trd youtooz i am drilling a hole. in that bad bpy and let it sit and marinate in a bodily fluid jar like the rainbow dash jar. i am really sorry whoever actually read all this. sometimes i wonder if this will get any attention at all which i dont even know. but once more i wanna apologize and just say im a homronal pubesent person. i just realized how long this was sorry for wasting your time in my ao3 length essay paragraph on my deep adoration for tord from eddsworld.i know about digital footprint and that kinda scares me so kinda risky post.