college

ive been in college for like 3 years at this point but i just transfered so it feels like i'm a freshman again. i moved and all that, independent type shit. I'm halfway through the semester and I'm still trying to get myself sorted. I got into the college I wanted and started to grow up like yearned to do all these years, but everything's so different now, my closest relationships are now morphing into something. Me and my best friend don't call as much anymore, I haven't hungout with him in person since I left. Me and my sister still text each other but I miss going into her room and bothering her, I can't even do that now if I come back home since she's moved to Nevada. Me and ex girlfriend broke up. We said we'd stay good friends but that never actually happens, would have been nice though. I don't have anyone to talk about these feelings with because I'm too embarrassed to bring it up for some reason. I mean that's why I'm ignoring my project due in less than 12 hours to write this, because it feels like everything is too much for me to handle and I can't bring myself to admit that to a real person. That's why I write this knowing that it's just going into the void, it's not embarassing if no body is gonna see and it feels worth it to if somebody does, they won't know who I am either way