RRR | Pt. 4 - Intrusive Thoughts (Reo's Random Rants)

One thing I've struggled with almost all my life was how hard it was to stay positive all the time. I've dealt with horrible situations in my life, and most of the time they'd never go as planned, so it started to lower my expectations over the years and only make me expect the worst from people and other things. It was hard to stay happy when everything around me was constantly going wrong, and it made it almost impossible to stay happy. I felt that all hope was lost and maybe I should just give up wishing for a sign, but then that sign came to me when I met this amazing girl.

At first I felt that she was only with me because she pitied me, or that she was just another girl who was going to walk into my life and make me build up all of this trust for her, just to break me in the end. But no, this girl was far from that. This girl is amazing, she's kind and caring, she's communicative, she's supportive of every one of my dreams and opinions, and most of all she sees me for who I really am. Every other girl that's walked into my life either saw me as selfish or insecure or overprotective, etc. But this girl just saw a broken boy that needed to be fixed, and she made it her entire goal to ensure that happens.

She checked on me everyday to make sure I was eating correctly, and that I was caught up on my higiene. She told me when she'd go out and how long she'd be gone for. She'd take pictures for me just so I knew where she was. She gave me all of the love and attention I needed to make sure I was happy. She prioritized me over everything, even giving up huge job opportunities just because she wanted to spend more time with me instead. I mean, what other girl does that for a boy? I knew she was special when I saw the way she treated me. I feel like I've finally found the one for me.

At first I assumed that she wouldn't be able to handle me and the way I think, but she's so much more understanding and forgiving than I thought she'd be. She reassures me that everything's gonna be okay, and no matter the situation I'm in, it will get better. She's helped me through everything I've ever faced, and has honestly made me regain hope for alot of the things I gave up on. I feel so much happier and alot more positive now, and I will be forever grateful for her.I guess the point I'm trying to make here is, call apon a friend or family member or even your partner when you're in need, just having someone to talk to and express your thoughts to can really help you through everything.