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is this what life is supposed to be?
wake up every day and repeat the same routine, pretend to be okay during the day and cry to sleep at night?
am i supposed to carry myself through this pitty world until 80?
what is happiness anyways? why everyone expects you to be happy? why is it that happiness is considered the main achievement in life?
i know my english is bad, but is the language i can express myself better.
im tired of life, sometimes i want to die but then i want to live because i know theres good things that are worth to live for, but every day i think and l look at myself in the mirror and i cant stop thinking that i will be nobody in life. i barely can get out of bed, i do it because of the routine more than will to live. i love my friends and family but sometimes i just wanna move away from everyone, go somewhere no one knows me and just live a quiet life, where i can be miserable in peace...
sometimes i think that what i feel is stupid, i tent to invalidate my feelings because i know if i get consumed by them i will no longer be able to pretent to be okay, and i hate to be the center of attention... but sometimes i just want to just not be okay, im tired of pretending, im tired of not recognizing myself anymore because every day i try to be someone im not, every day i try to feel something i dont. and i know its not other people's fault and i know then dont deserve their day ruined just because of my mood...
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NeverNcolor_13
let me tell u rn IT DOESNT GET BETTER! but that doesn't mean it wont get better eventually. maybe you've got too much time on your hands. whatever you do if you haven't picked up drugs FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DONT START. the hole will only get deeper. Always remember it's a bad day not a bad life :P. Its probably your environment and things will get better soon!
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NeverNcolor
m0rty
yeah, i know how this feels.
the system isn't built for you to be happy, it's built for you to be productive. it's up to you to find ways of circumventing this. be happy in defiance. that's not to say don't be productive, but be happy while making time for productivity. your happiness should always be put above your productivity.
try to find something slightly different to do. try different music. play a different game. take the long way on your way to your usual destination. shake your life up. and above all else, talk to people. you're never gonna have the same two conversations. hope this helps!
oh, and if you haven't already, consider uninstalling social medias (spacehey doesn't count, it's not designed to be addictive). it can really help while trying to adjust to a more positive world view.
thank you, it does help(:
by saturn ☆; ; Report
glad to help! i hope you do better.
by m0rty; ; Report