thoughts

my muse

i am

my new feelings

i was repulsed (

by them 

are nice.

i live to express them the euphoria motivates me

and i can draw new experiences 

i accept them

i dont know what is next the "thought fascinates me

"that i came to this conclusion 

not conclusion 

"that i came to this level

i react impulsively

when i was little  i was calculated i had the 3rd person perspective i was thinking i knew how to act yet i was afriad i was afriad ofL

no i cant i feel vulnerable when i talk about it

love is naive it dumbs me but it feels so good i think straight only when im not influenced by emotions

strong emotions.

not happines

irritation 

feelings

intense feelings i

i want to live them.

But its a thought of a stupid girl thats how it seems

i cannot be happy because i will be taken as a stupid girl

stupid

stupid in love 

everyone laughs when it doesnt work

everyone doesnt go through love like I do

everyone dont love like i do

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