eng. & 日本語 | 色んな選べる漫画 - 'wasting time'

やっと週末が来たなー　高校三年生活は難しい所があっても大体詰まらないんだ。

昨日「末」の意味分かりが強くなってされた。「終わり」というイメージがあろので、「週末」とか単語は「働き週間が終わり日」意味があって分かりに来て喜んだ。辞書に一つだけ単語を探しても別な定義を読むと理解が深まる。なので実は辞書を読むのは勉強方としてかなり面白くて楽しいと思う

it's not such a bad thing to waste time, I'm starting to think. I used to fret about using my time in the best, most efficient way; to do as many interesting and different things as I could. but now I see that there's no rush (likely because I've really disengaged with the rat race), and that I'm allowed to simply be interested in whatever non-taxing thing I'm doing in the present moment. 

(such as searching for a decent japanese-language manga to read.)

in fact, it's said that in order for our brains and bodies to receive the rest they need, we ought to spend 42% of our time doing exactly that. about ten hours out of the twenty-four in a day. although I do get enough sleep, I'm finding that resting while awake is a valuable use of my time. I'm realising two things; one, that I hate doing schoolwork at home, and two, I do my work more efficiently on paper. I'm starting to adjust my patterns of study accordingly, spending more time focusing intensely at school on my work so that I can avoid doing it at home (and going crazy). 

最近、マキマというサイトに練習ために使える漫画を探したり無料一話読んだり面白そうな漫画を見つけるとz-libraryにタイトルを調べる。でもz-libraryは大抵欲しくなくて露骨な漫画しかないそうだ。何でそういう漫画だけ載せ込みさせたの！！

because I'm trying to focus more on doing my work during school hours, I've been working on not giving into my urges to kill a handful of minutes by browsing through random sites. it's also not such a bad thing to be bored, though I have to practice being bored, as my instinct has always been to find something to do. it's an important part of downtime, actually- it's a sign that my brain's gotten a chance to rest. aside from sitting there and doing nothing, I'm trying to fill this empty time with reading. the other day I borrowed a book on modern japanese culture from the school library with the aim of filling my free time with it, but I'm running into a familiar issue: the chunks of time I have in which I could read it aren't enough to make much headway, and so I end up forgetting what I've read by the time I pick it up again. (as well as the fact that it's not always in front of me, unlike my laptop, on which I can kill time in silly ways) maybe I should just read it anyway ...

さあ、一通り気になりタイトルを書き立てようか。まだちゃんと読まなかったのにその内やって始めるつもり。

⦿女帝花舞（実は京都はまあまあだったので今は前より花街に興味が落ちた）

⦿応天の門

⦿柳都物語（人々の回復力物語はいつも面白い）

⦿銀座女帝伝説順子（本当に読みたいかどうか知れない）

⦿鹿楓堂よついろ日和（柔らかい読み事はいい）

⦿ホッとひと宿

明日も何もやらないつもり！！昼寝の機会を乗じるよ。今日の昼寝は変だった、母がご飯を作っている中、三人の修行僧が日本舞踊みたい、扇子で踊っていた。その時私は「こんなスマホ過度スクロールをやめたほうがいい！お修行僧さんは私に踊っていても全然見てない！！」と思って見に行った。未来の旦那も踊っていた思しかった？前夜の夢にも現れたかも？背中が痛みに起きた。そうなると、彼は私が寝ている中触ったということ。で、先襟に揉み揉みしてると感じさせて、あの接触は彼の?最近は心もとないかも?こんなことのやり理由。

ここでは終わり。明日は日帰りに行く事になって、未来の旦那は他の注意を引いてみよう時を見つけるはずそう！じゃあ、また (*・ω・)ノ