friends

sometimes i wish i had friends. i wish i had people i could be myself around and they would accept me for that. i wish i had friends who liked the same weird shit as me, and we could talk about it and geek over it with each other. it would be so cool to be able to go to a metal show with friends, or just hang out with someone.

i always kinda sucked at making friends. i never really fit in with others and it has only gotten worse as ive gotten older and stayed to myself more. now the only place i really want to be is alone in my room. this can make it hard for me to actually go do things because i just dont really like being out.

i kinda get jealous of people who can talk to others without freaking out. that shit is hard for me. i dont know what its like to have good/close friends, i never really had that in my life. ive had school friends before but i never got close with anybody and as i get older it feels like i never really will. this little rant prob sounds lame as hell but its just how i feel. 

in conclusion im lonely and have no friends cause im a socially awkward weirdo. thanks for listening to me complain.