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Dear Diary, 10/15/08
So, I started university last month. I think I’m happy…? I don’t know. Ever since the summer, everything feels… different. Like, I don’t feel like me anymore? Like part of me is still back at camp, trapped in that cabin or something. It sounds dumb, but I can’t shake it. It’s like I can’t move forward, no matter how hard I try.
But anyway, I’m majoring in Musical Theatre and English (I know, a double major—why do I do this to myself?! XD). I’ve made a bunch of friends! They’re all older though, which is… weird. Being 16 in university is hard. (Okay, I turn 17 soon, but still!) I feel like such a baby around them sometimes. It’s like I’m pretending I know what I’m doing when I don’t. I guess that extra year does help with maturity… I don’t really know why I graduated early sometimes.
And then there’s Daniel.
I haven’t seen him since August, but I’ve seen… enough. His girlfriend’s Facebook page is honestly kind of scary. His MySpace? I had to block him. I couldn’t look at it anymore. Every picture, his eyes are just… empty. There’s no other way to put it. Like he’s not even there anymore, like something’s seriously wrong.
And then the car crash!
Literally right after I left the police station a few months ago, he crashed his car. Three broken ribs, dislocated shoulder, a concussion. Daniel’s a good driver, so… how does something like that even happen? I don’t want to believe my theory that he did it on purpose. He couldn’t have…
I tried talking to Amadeo about it, but he just completely shut down. Like, I brought up Daniel, and he just went silent. He wouldn’t even look at me. I hate that. I hate how we can’t even talk about what happened anymore, like we’re all just pretending it didn’t happen. But it did. And it’s still happening.
I don’t know. I just hope things somehow work out…
Love,
Annabel ♥
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