ITS BEEN SO LONG

wowwwww it's been 11 months.... last time I updated I had just turned 14 and started freshman year. Now I'm 15 I've dyed my hair pink, got glasses (thank god), gave myself a very unsanitary stick-n-poke w a sewing needle and pen ink (it's practically all gone now) and soon I'll be getting an industrial piercing, and hopefully a few helix piercings w spike jewelry. Other than that nothing else has really changed, I still don't have any friends but at least not I'm not eating lunch in the bathroom ya know? at least it's on the cafeteria floor. 

My mom made me sign up for Flag Football that shit was HORRIBLEEEEE I hated every single second of it + We sucked shit at it we once lost a game like 40-something to 0 (WTFF) PLUS we played in 105+ degree weather. I HATE ARIZONA. I hate sports but I didn't have a choice but I did end up convincing my mom to let me quit after like our 3-4th??? game and when I happily told my coach I was quitting he told me not to feel bad for quitting and in my head I was like "Was I supposed to feel bad?????". Later when the team ended up passing me they asked me why I wasn't going but I didn't say anything and then one of the girls spoke up and said that it was obvious that I was kicked out WTF bitch no I left cuz you all suck ass and I hate sports. During a game, I had to take off my helix piercing cuz we can't have them on the field but then I forgot to put it in right away and by the next morning I couldn't put it back in and I was PISSEDDDD. But that's the end of that.

Last week was parent-teacher conferences and my teachers were chill I have straight A's but one B in geometry (ugh geometry) the only complaint most of them had was that I was always on my phone (which is a reasonable complaint I really am) and that I need to involve myself and talk more (pff like that will happen) 

On another note, LIAM PAYNE DIED YESTERDAY!?!?!?!. It was the first thing I heard about when I woke up it was 3:03(I went to sleep supper late) and then I opened Discord to see that my cousin told me that he died??!?. I then searched it up and I wasn't 100% sure it was true cus it was so recent that Google didn't have a date of death next to the date of birth yet and it was only news articles but yeah turns out he did. Soon after I texted my sister to tell her cuz she was a huge One Direction fan in the 2010's and then a few hours later she called me saying that she had just gotten out of work and saw my message and we talked ab how crazy it was for a bit. I still can't believe it. later I went through my mom's Insta to see if she had any pics of the matching One Directing Pj's I had w my sisters and she does lol it was back in 2015 before they broke up.

Anyway, that's pretty much it. I still dream about running up to Oregon, leaving Arizona behind forever sigh. Maybe I'll give myself a treat and sneak some tequila today. signing off, Blake.