Regarding relationships

[REPOSTED FROM BULLETINS]

If I heard it correctly apparently this guy in my class has recently been offered to go out with a girl to see a horror movie or something which is ridiculous because I don’t understand how anyone would like him. He’s incredibly rude and generally has an unacceptable attitude imo. Has he ever been rude to me technically? Not exactly but he did call me stupid once through text although context is important here and reason he said that was due to me believing my school headmistress would actually pick me to enter my school’s debate competition when he believes that she is incredibly biased which I guess isn’t entirely wrong because I in fact did not get picked. Back to the guy, he has this awful haircut and atp I feel like he should just shave the whole thing off. 

Anyways all that aside but recently my classmates have been in discussion regarding relationships and the alike. My teacher also teases some of my classmates who are rumoured to have a bf or gf. I for one cannot contribute to these conversations in any way so best I can do is to look unbothered as not to seem suspicious. There actually is a boy in a former a year lower than me who I believe to be rather attractive but personality wise I could not say much. We also have never interacted in any way. It’s funny because I never used to found interest in him before this but recently something “clicked” for me I guess. 

There’s this boy in my class who I pretend to believe has some form of interest in me but it could probably just be in my head and my desire for attention from the opposite gender. It’s natural after all for a teenage girl like me but it pisses me off to a great extent. It doesn’t happen always but I hate how much I have the desire to be wanted by others when in reality I don’t exactly have many qualities that would charm boys my age in any way. My looks are alright and I would only consider myself desirable in a very pathetic way that requires only very specific people to be into. I am the equivalent of a small rodent you put into your pocket (what?). 

Anywho it’s 2AM and I should hit the hay now as I have to be up in about 3 hours or so