The difficulty of making new friends

Do you know the feeling when you move to a new town and you know absolutely nobody? How about you bear with my writing and relate;)

This is exactly my most recent problem. I moved to a small-ish town to study illustration and I don't know anyone. I moved here about a month ago and I feel like it's not going to change. I face so many problems, for example, I don't know how to talk to people, or how to keep talking to people. My other problem is my identity. Also, one of the biggest fears is the forming of groups which reminds me of my past.

I don't know how to talk to people. At first it was easy. I had to introduce myself and talk about moving here. Cool, people related. They had to find a new apartment, they also moved and didn't know anyone. I haven't managed to talk to other people after the first week because I couldn't think of anything to talk about. I sometimes have a thought in my head, something to share with my seat neighbor. But then again, isn't that weird? They don't want to hear my shit. Just as I wouldn't bother with reading a text-wall like this, so thanks to anyone listening!

The few people I managed to have a conversation with are so difficult to keep. I don't know if I'm too annoying or if my identity is too weird (more about that later on). I see those people already in class, sitting and talking and all I can do is sit next to them. No "hello" and no other conversation. I don't fit into the conversation. It is already full with other people talking. Then I get these thoughts, like "they don't like you", "they don't want you here" and so I start not sitting next to them.

One big problem is my identity. If you didn't know, I'm a trans man(btw if you disagree with this you can fuck off). I'm struggling alot because of that. For example, it's not a thing I can accept, because I was raised to not accept people like me. My parents would disown me if I changed my name and I still rely on their support. As in, I would be homeless if I changed my name. My university has me registered under my deadname and now teachers keep calling me by that. I don't have courage to correct them, so it makes sense. My theory is that a lot of people despise my for my confusing gender.

It is all very scary and I feel as if I am back in middle school. Friend groups are forming quickly and I try befriending a lot of people, but I never fit into any friend group and stay alone. I may be doomed to stay alone in this world, forever.

Either way, does anyone else feel like this? Does anyone have advice? I may try to join an emo meet-up group near me if my anxiety allows it.