Vampires, boys and a place where summer lasts forever

Sometimes when I don't have class I am consumed by immense loneliness, I miss them, my friends, they make me forget all the shit in my head.

:(

 In class I like to look at a boy, he's funny but reminds me of Dumbo (the ears) I kind of like him, but recently I realized that I'm the kind of girl that no one likes and he's probably going to end up marrying one of my friends (And you might ask me 'Hey Punk, how do you know?' It's the way he looks at them, fills me with envy)

(He has the most beautiful dark eyes I have ever seen) 

 Speaking of school, we will having a Halloween party and I'm pretty down, maybe I'll go as a vampire, it suits me like the anemic bitch that I am. Sadly I have to get up from my humble coffin at 4:44, which sucks since I'm only leaving school at four in the afternoon.

The feminine desire to be a creature from a story consumes me every dawn. damn hell, I would be a vampire the irony is that I live in a place that is hot all year round, the seasons where I live are some months dry as hell and the other rainy as hell. The good part, some classes are canceled in the rainy months and it is damn cold.

I catch myself thinking about when I'm going to have a boyfriend, I consider myself different here, you know? like a burned out Christmas light. Last month I was going out with a boy, he was hot and made me turn over in my grave. Well, we stopped going out because some people thought it was my fault that he broke up with his girlfriend and some were calling me a slut and a whore. Damn, how can they call me that if at 16 I never kissed with tongue? How the hell do you kiss with tongue??? That's the devil's work!!! 

Well, apart from that, my final considerations are; Being a vampire in a place where both climates kill you is terrible, but liking a boy who looks at your friend with so much love is bad, and being called a bitch without knowing how to kiss is even worse. 

kisses from your friend, punk 🦇‼️