NEW ART!! Tw: body horror, religious themes, creepy eyes+teeth+hands

NEW ART!!!!!

Some of my latest art from the past 3-4 days! Been experimenting with a new style in hopes to fix my fear of creepy eyes and teeth AND IT WORKED FUCK YEAH1!!!!! Autism rant under the art but otherwise enjoy!






Okay so you might be thinking "scotty if you're jewish and you like g.d then why are your last 3 self portraits vaguely religious but also scary. seems counterintuitive." and yeah I definitely see that- I don't exactly put a lot of thought into the design of the things I make, I just sort of get an idea and decide it looks cool. That being said, it is purposeful making them religious and also upsetting to look at. I've got a complicated relationship with religion, with my own identity, and with past traumas, and making a physical representation of myself has been something I've struggled to do since I was young. I see myself in most aspects as something I'm proud to be, and the things I've gone through and continue to go through may not define me anymore but they definitely shaped who I am today. My relationship with g.dliness and all that jazz now is much healthier and happier than in my childhood, but I still have work to do with that. My relationship with my gender expression and physical appearance is a huge amount more positive than it used to be, but I still experience dysphoria. My relationship with my mental health is so so much better than it once was, but I still struggle with OCD, PTSD, dissociation, things that make navigating the world difficult. 

That's completely glossing over physical and developmental disabilities that change my experience, synesthesia, the list goes on and on and by the end of it I still want to communicate that I'm growing and changing and becoming my own person, but doing so any way besides this in this moment is just out of the question. 

Other than all that I just think it looks cool as fuck and feel it would be disingenuous to represent myself in a way that looks normal. If you've met me then you'll probably agree.