I need ur help

I want to choose God, I want to end my bad habits, my vices, my bad thoughts, but it seems so difficult when your whole cycle of friendship always ends in the same dead end, I want to live without problems, be light, because when I end up on the same path I know that what I do is killing me, I want reasons to stop (not that I don't already have) but I want something to inspire me to stop completely and not want to go back.