Overanalyzing sucks.

So, whenever I mention that I tend to overanalyze the people around me and their behaviors, I get the ever so classic "oh that must be so cool! You're really gifted!" I'm not. I get used to someone behaving in a specific way that the moment they act differently, my mind gets sent into a spiral. Every day I notice changes in the behaviors of those around me and it sends me into a downward spiral of wondering what I'm doing wrong and why they're acting so strange. It's not even their fault, it's just a stupid trait of mine. I get so used to them being a specific way that I freak out when any change happens, wether that be a new person in the group, a person leaving, a person suddenly changing stuff up, or even someone saying something different when I say something I have said thousands of times before. I hate that I get so obsessive over this one routine that whenever it gets thrown off balance I immediately do everything to try and set it back on balance. I have pushed so many people away like that that I'm honestly scared to meet new people. I wish I could just turn my brain off so that it wouldn't make me feel this way.